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i think i may have temporarily forgot how to be alone - a first so far

"what did i expect anyway" such a bitter thought; perhaps it could be better off as a "why did i even expect that"? am i wrong to want what i want? am i wanting too much, or have you been taking too much? 其实想了又想，这不是时间的问题，是心思。浪费我心思。我做再多少也是多余的；是我自己他妈自找的。其实 我想这样多又何苦，结果只有我一个人在烦，还是我一个人