Do as you please then.

看都看腻了。

"You can get used to the physical pain, the way your legs and arms ache as your body eats at your muscles, you can get used to the constant headaches, the way your eyes are all over the place never focusing and always stinging, you can get used to the sadness, the loneliness, how you are always cold, always tired.. always alone… you can get used it all… You never get used to the wars that go on in your head, the constant mood changes, the hate, you don’t get used to the way you can’t control your emotions, how you can explode any second but you haven’t scheduled it in your mind, and the unpredictability of emotions drives up the wall… You don’t get used to the way you shift from wanting a life to being dead… and those shifts are the hardest to handle, how you suddenly realise everything that’s missing. But take just one factor away, just one, like poor eyesight.. and then comes the frantic feeling of panic.. Of how something you hate so much, but something that has become so comforting and homey and even made you ‘happy’ everything is ruined and you do anything to go back ‘home’ to that place."