Today's shower thoughts: everyday i remind myself i have nothing to gripe about since i'm a place where i'm supposedly "chasing my dreams", "doing what i love", "learning things that are actually useful". but then again, just because you're in such a place doesn't necessarily mean you love what you do? also what you loved at 16 doesn't = what you'll love at 18. though honestly i don't think i'll use the word "love" on anything done in school so far, not even literature/history even though i like it so much. then again, i know nobody really 100% loves what they do on an everyday basis. whatever gonna suck it up i'll smile brightly some day in school (in design..........) some day....!! oh well 是你的路就是你的路。不是你的路要走也轮不到你。 also whoever decided the longer you spent on something = the more effort? sometimes it's just eye power soOooo... i'm so sick of everyone and the noise in school god.

on a lighter note tonight's air is really crisp and i can hear the crickets. this makes me miss chiangrai more than i want to :')