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Meanwhile.

Well, aren't the holidays just plain exciting, 

extra lessons, test, intensive morning study sessions and extra tests. 

/RANT/

And guess who got sent home today because i wasn't wearing school socks? -_-"

Yes AH, go on and send 7 under performing students who are attending a lesson they REALLY need JUST to take school socks. It's not even about the shoes, or the attire (school skirt; no jeans etc) It's about the freaking socks nobody looks at. Wasting our money on transport to take a pair of socks, which wouldn't affect our learning at all. Furthermore it's the holidays, and at least we bothered to wear school related tee + skirt right? What bad impression would our shoes give off anyway? I would understand if we were sent home for, say, wearing jeans/shorts/bermudas and whatnot, but socks, seriously? Look at other schools, wearing their own shoes every single school day, and we're only wearing it during the holidays. Why ban flats when all you said was "no slippers" and wear "covered shoes". Hell, my shoes aren't even sparkly or with heels. But fine, since these shoes aren't allowed we are supposed to be punished for it, and i would be less angry and irritated if it were about the shoes and not the socks. You put us in a spot, we put you back in a spot, with a lovely complain letter from a sensible parent. Actually none of the rules that have been implemented recently has got a legit reason/strong foundation behind it, lolfail.

Everyone thinks it's ridiculous okay, even our parents.

& guess what, it got our favourite caring teacher all upset with himself because he felt that it was his fault that he did not enforce the laws properly, and he spent so much time brooding over where his niceness/kindness towards students has brought him, and whether it works, and questioned himself if he is a good teacher. So angry today because he is the one person nobody in class wants to disappoint. And we felt like crap today because of the big hooha that happened, during his lesson. How to face him after all this shit we constantly bring upon him? The worst thing is that he knows we know how to behave, and didn't mean for any of these to happen, but it still happens. He must be really puzzled sigh. He doesn't scold or blame any of us, which i'd much rather he did cause otherwise i just feel guilty and drown in my own guilt. 

Like today.

And all these extra freaking lessons and tests for under performing students. Yes i get it i screwed up big time and i am not performing well and not meeting your ideals that you tyrannically impose on all of us, but give us a week's break at least? Having 4 intensive studying sessions does not mean we need to be tested for it again on the first of Term 3 (and because you claim we "have two whole weeks to study") Are you for real, the project given is so hard to comprehend, and we have 4 books to read and other assignments as well, and you say we should spend the holidays wisely with our family and friends, improve yourself spiritually, read widely, explore more, find out more and take a good break. What break seriously, might as well plan my time and schedule for me, cause i find myself incapable of finding so much time for these crap. I get it that we must work hard since we are lousier than others, but why the extra test what the heck i am totally okay and chill about the study session until i heard about the test. So are the top 15% of the cohort the only ones who are worthy enough to get to spend time with family/friends? They're the only ones who are human and need a break? They are the only good students who work hard? I think even the parents who went for the principal talk are starting to think the school is biting off more than they can chew. If hard work paid off every single time, why are schools ranked differently; they are working hard too what, no? Then why are they not in prestigious institutions? Why judge us on our previous t-scores, when you guys say "the past does not define the future, look forward" whenever we get bad results, and you guys keep looking back at what we achieved so darn long ago and judge us based on it?  It's so stupid seriously, what if we just got lucky that time? Yup, and the guy who apparently got 188 and is in triple science now... dude he had freaking dengue okay shut up if i had dengue i'd get 188 as well pshhh. Always saying we spend too much time on cca and never put in any effort. Effort? I swear Denz and Regine studied so darn hard, and it's not like they don't pay attention during lessons. I feel so terrible for tintin yong, he's so hard on himself and always blaming himself ;_; And cca, they need to stop assuming everyone likes cca.

 Never knew why people would say school is trash until this year. What a total shithole, i have a James Cook urge to burn school property. It's a horrible place to be, putting all of us down constantly, how will we ever get up on our feet again, lol.

/Angsty immature student rant ends here/

For fuck's sake wtf asdfghjkl

Ok so basically i just feel like i'm never going to make it no matter how hard  i try oh well.

And i can't comprehend anything that's happening i just want to throw my hands up and quit